be still and know that i am God.
but assignments, projects, work, meetings, deadlines, responsibilities, commitments : they're overwhelming . suffocating . i stay moving and busy all day long, going from one class to the next meeting to the next commitment . i don't find time to just stop and breathe and before i know it i'm in tears at the end of the day . "i can't keep going like this , " i told her . "i can't keep up this busy pace . i feel like my life is crumbling and i'm struggling with things but i never have time to deal with them or even to just breathe ."
my mind wanders back to that july morning . the morning where i hit rock bottom and almost quit . i woke up before the sun, as usual, but instead of going through the usual routine i took a walk . there was thick fog and everything was quiet and there were fears and doubts controlling my thoughts and i couldn't shake them . i was desperately looking for a way to keep moving forward . and i found it : be still and know that i am God .
i didn't have answers that day . but i could keep moving and trusting because God is God . he's good and he's in control .
he's got this . i only need to rest .
and here, when i'm again overwhelmed and at my end i remember that fog drenched morning and i remember those words .
be still and know that i am God .
deadlines will always be looming . there will always be something to do . i will always be busy -- that's not an excuse to not be with God . i so easily lose focus, so easily stumble . i need Jesus more than i need anything else . he's better than perfect grades, he's better than sleep . Jesus is more beautiful than my weakness and my own way . in him, i have everything i need . in him, i find rest .
in him, i find redemption that is so beautiful and so heavy with grace .
so today, here and now, i'm choosing to run to Christ and find rest in him and just be still . because he is God .
he's got this . i need only to rest .
