today i flew from baltimore to denver .
i spent three hours waiting in the
airport . i wandered around, got my guacamole fix for the week, observed people
& soaked in everything around me . and let me tell you, airports are the
best place to people watch . i saw families leaving for sunny & warm
vacations, businessmen bored with yet another flight, backpackers excited about
their next adventure . i saw single mothers struggle with their rowdy children
and elderly people trying to find baggage claim . there was a girl eating a bag
of chips like it was her last meal . i watched a man sprint to make his
connecting flight and a precious couple that had to be on their honeymoon .
and you know what ? the beauty of this airport today is that here i am just another one of these people . i'm just the girl writing furiously in her journal, tripping on the moving sidewalk & eating guacamole like there's no tomorrow . and here, i am free from the pressure to perform . i daily struggle with not feeling ____ enough . i long for so much more . i search for approval and silently cry out for love everywhere . i can't let anyone see my mistakes, don't want anyone to notice that i don't have it all together . i've already written about this . it's an ongoing battle . but here amidst thousands of faces, i am just that-- a face in the crowd . i'm just another story among many, someone that you pass and don't think twice about . i'm free from trying to gain approval . there's no one here to impress . i don't have to perform or be good enough . because no one is here to care .
and you know what ? the beauty of this airport today is that here i am just another one of these people . i'm just the girl writing furiously in her journal, tripping on the moving sidewalk & eating guacamole like there's no tomorrow . and here, i am free from the pressure to perform . i daily struggle with not feeling ____ enough . i long for so much more . i search for approval and silently cry out for love everywhere . i can't let anyone see my mistakes, don't want anyone to notice that i don't have it all together . i've already written about this . it's an ongoing battle . but here amidst thousands of faces, i am just that-- a face in the crowd . i'm just another story among many, someone that you pass and don't think twice about . i'm free from trying to gain approval . there's no one here to impress . i don't have to perform or be good enough . because no one is here to care .
no one cares, except One .
the only One that really matters, the only One i really need to please at all -- He is here . He is with me; watching, smiling because i'm already approved . i'm beloved . i'm accepted . not because i'm good, but because of His gospel . i'm the object of God's love precisely because of my shortcomings -- He still loves me, completely and irrevocably . i've read ephesians . these facts saturate that book . when it comes down to it, i don't need the acceptance of people . my deepest need is the approval of God . and i already have that, in Christ .
so it's here, today, in the baltimore airport outside gate b11 that i realize this : in Christ, i have everything i need .
the only One that really matters, the only One i really need to please at all -- He is here . He is with me; watching, smiling because i'm already approved . i'm beloved . i'm accepted . not because i'm good, but because of His gospel . i'm the object of God's love precisely because of my shortcomings -- He still loves me, completely and irrevocably . i've read ephesians . these facts saturate that book . when it comes down to it, i don't need the acceptance of people . my deepest need is the approval of God . and i already have that, in Christ .
so it's here, today, in the baltimore airport outside gate b11 that i realize this : in Christ, i have everything i need .
and i am free .
