tomorrow i leave for my happy place .
seriously, this camp is the first place i felt like i truly belonged . for one who has struggled with insecurity and feeling not-enough and less-than my whole life, showing up in an unknown place with unknown people for six whole weeks is a bit terrifying . i spent the entire trip up to camp trying to think of an excuse to leave because i was scared out of my mind . what if they don't like me ? what if i'm not good at this counselor thing ? there were so many fears, but oh man . now i look back and i laugh . i laugh and think "oh molly, if only you could have seen just a few hours into the future, you wouldn't be a bit worried ." because really, those people became my family . i found something that i love doing [ counseling ] and i thrived . i was not there by myself, i had my God with me and he carried me every moment of last summer . it was a full six weeks -- hard weeks, some where i wanted to quit and go home, but six weeks of becoming closer to my God & pointing girls to Him all day long .
anyways . tomorrow i go back for another six weeks . i'm counting on this summer being just as incredible, if not more, than the last . i'm expecting great things from God . i'm fully leaning on his promises and i know that he will do what he's promised to do . he's not finished with me yet, he's not finished with the other staff or my campers yet, and so this summer we will grow . he will give us strength and make us more like himself and i can't wait to be part of it.
there might be a few updates here and there, but if you don't hear from me i've either been eaten by bears or fallen off the zip line, or i might just be at camp where times to write are few and far between .
